Remember when we all couldn't wait to grow up? We wanted to grow up so bad that we could stay up late and watch tv. Grow up so we could eat whatever we wanted to. We wanted to grow up so fast. Honestly I wouldn't mind taking a few steps back, it's like the older you get the greater the responsibilities. Your parents don't really make decisions for you anymore, and that's hard especially if you want to make the right decisions.
I wanted to grow up so I could go where ever i wanted to go, eat all the ice-cream I wanted, and also I wanted to grow up because i thought life would be better. Growing up i believed that the world would be better off without me in it, crazy right. Everyone seems to change has they got older, but i don't really see a change in myself. I will say I'm not as shy as I used to be, and also not as passive. But everyone I knew changed, my tomboy girlfriends turned into girly-girls, my shy sistas turned into social monsters. I wouldn't say I'm stuck, I admit growing up is starting to get a little scary but I like how I am. I remember sitting around drawing spongebob and patrick when I was bored( I still do). Running outside to play with the boys and my tom girls. Everybody has totally upgraded to total hot studs and gals. And they wanna try and change me too, lol. I admit I'm a bit rough around the edges, but My diamond will shine-eventually.
Yay life, can't run away from it.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
So I've been gone for a long while. Nothing major has happen lately only that I'm done with my exams but my mind is still crowded. Crowded with decisions about life, school, my dreams. Am I making the right decisions in life? These are the questions that haunt me. Day after day, night after night, the same questions, still no complete answer. I can barely have a good nights rest, because of my mind. Insomnia much. Well, I'm doing my best to take care of myself this year and all the years to come. I can't let what happened in 2010 happen again. My bestie lost her step-dad the other day and I have to be trying to keep her happy and sane. lol. Overall, I'm doing ok, I hope you all are doing good too.